The Real Deal

Malachi will be 11 weeks tomorrow. In some ways I can’t believe it’s already been 11 weeks, and in other ways I can’t believe it’s only been 11 weeks. (Mostly the sleep deprived side of me feels that way.) There really isn’t anything that can prepare you for parenthood. Having Malachi has been such a … More The Real Deal

Mom Status

This isn’t my first Mother’s Day, and I realize that everyone may not see it that way at first glance. And in the past I would have been the same way. But it’s my heart to help others understand what it’s like to be a mom with a baby in heaven.    I am a … More Mom Status


Over the last month I have been working to keep things in the right perspective. Sometimes it’s easier to see the negative things in a situation and overlook the positives.  I am in the final stretch. With less than 10 weeks until my due date, the to-do list can sometimes seem daunting. I so desperately … More Perspective

Heavens Birthday

A year ago today I said hello and goodbye all at once. You made me a mom. When I lost you, I lost part of me. I long so deeply for what was taken from me.  The last year has been the hardest year of my life. Losing a child is devastating beyond words. But … More Heavens Birthday

Life After Loss

We are so excited to announce that we are expecting sweet baby Suszko in June 2017! However, this is so much more than a baby announcement post. So many of you mourned with us earlier this year with our miscarriage, and now we want you to celebrate with us as we are expecting again. It … More Life After Loss

Stubborn Faith 

I would have been 35 weeks today. This year has proven to be the greatest roller coaster I’ve ever been on. But over the last couple of weeks God has really healed the void in my heart. (If you missed the last post, you can read about our miscarriage here.) It had been my goal … More Stubborn Faith 

My Worshipper

It was never my intention to share this so publicly. At least not yet. But at the same time I had a pull to do so and after some confirmation here I am. Shachah.  Pronounced shaw-khaw. The Hebrew word meaning to bow down [in worship]. As I was praying one day, I asked God to … More My Worshipper