Well this trip is finally starting to set in. About a week ago as I was praying and then driving to work it started to feel real. This feeling increases nearly every day. I kept saying that once we got a month away from the trip it would start to feel real. But deep down I wasn’t sure that it would. Part of me thought it wouldn’t hit until we were packing or perhaps as we arrived at the airport. But it hasn’t taken that long (thankfully). I can feel the anxious excitement growing right now! I’m hoping to pick up my old Spanish textbook within the next week and begin some review. The last thing I want to do is take this trip lightly. So many decisions have been put off for this. I keep praying that God will help us be prepared, but I’m not really sure how to prepare for a trip like this. There are so many mixed emotions.
I’ll be saying goodbye to my co-workers soon. I didn’t think that would be a problem since I don’t have a relationship with any of them outside of work. However, I got a farewell gift this morning from one of them. Opening up the card to see a gift card for one of my favorite restaurants and two bags of my favorite chocolate made me fight back a couple of tears. This is going to be much tougher than I expected.
There is so much that needs to be done before we leave but it seems as though all of it must wait until we only have a few days left. I can’t start packing yet. I can clean, but I’ll have to clean again. I can say goodbye, but I’ll still see them tomorrow. So for now I pray and study up. I no longer have any expectations of what will happen or what we’ll do in the future. And I don’t feel any pressure from anyone about making a wrong decision. I know that we need God, and He has to remain our focus.